between houses...

i feel like i don't really live IN a house right now.

because

i'm going back and forth between my home in kennesaw and my house in columbus.

and really, when i read that last sentence again, it explains it all.

i feel like my home in kennesaw is my home, but i'm not spending enough time there for me to feel like i'm actually living there. and the home i'm living in columbus is just a roof.

i'm not saying that i don't enjoy living in columbus, but it just isn't home.

yet.

i really would like to find myself here in comlumbus and get an idea of what my identity is, because i feel like i've always been associated with other people and never just been me.

like back in high school, i was me. jim pharr.

but, in columbus i'm jim, jeremiah, and caroline.

again.

not saying this is a bad thing. i love them. the are the kindest people i know, but i'd like to be known as jim pharr. not as a group.

that's what i'm feeling right now as i plan to leave my HOUSE behind and go HOME for the weekend.

thanks for reading, whoever you are. hope you got something from this.

love,

jim

p.s.

general auditions are coming around next month. i don't know what i'm doing, but i think i'm going to find it soon. i can feel it.

p.p.s.

jason laiche is playing with me at Picasso's on the 30th of this month. drive to come see it, he's incredible. and i might bring back evan fricks who killed it the last time out. COME SEE ME!

out.

bad note

i kind of left you on one last time.

things are better.

i just want to say that my stomach was making so much noise just a few seconds ago that i had to turn on my music (currently playing Barabajagal by Donovan.)

some other things include:

1. me getting a "job" playing at Picasso's Pizza in downtown columbus. (nice gig, 4 hours of just me and my guitar gently weeping)
2. i've been reuniting with sunflower seeds. (i prefer ranch flavor, but regular is always a good choice.)
3. i cried a few nights ago and it was good. (i was watching Spring Awakening... i know, lame, but being a theatre major i kind of need to get in touch with my feelings every once and a while)
4. i like the swell season. (a ton)
5. i've been eating way to much bologna... (why is it spelled like that bo-lo-gna? not right. should be baloney)
6. i transcribed a guitar part for "Pure Imagination" from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. (one of my favorite movies)
7. this list is actually pretty fulfilling seeing as it makes me actually think about things i do.
8. i miss writing poetry. (i had a stint a few months back where it was flowing)
9. i've been taking a lot of picture lately with my dad's old Olympus OM-1 camera and i like it. (my buddies who are in the band Small Reactions are hiring me as their photographer and actually are paying me [i think])
10. i've put those pictures around my room, and it feels like home now. (i moved from my apartment in Pooper [Cougar] Village into a house near a park [Lakebottom], and it's perfect)
11. (nothing entered)
12. i miss home home... the people mostly. (they know who i mean)
13. aaron is probably going to be the only one who reads this, if that, so hey... i miss you. (not in a gay way)
14. i need some suggestions on what to spend my money on from playing at this pizza place. (something musical, i.e. an instrument or whatnot)

so...

that was fun.

maybe we'll keep this up.

love,
jim

done,

(post deleted on account of bitchassness)

September 13th, 2007

was the last time i posted anything. since then i have successfully closed a show and immediately opened another. this time i'm working backstage, taking on the role of the assisstant stage manager. so far it's been hurry up and do this so you can then sit for two hours. The Visit (the show i acted in) went really well, my friends got nominated for a scholarship and i'm really proud for them. now, i am busy working on a show called Fuddy Meers. it is so funny, a little vulgar at times, but then again what contemporary, comedic theatre now-a-days isn't? i also have a paper due in a week for my theatre history class, and i somehow swindled my way into writing it about a musician named Devendra Banhart (check him out, he's a ood folk artist). i am starting a new project with my friend Evan. we're writing songs and recording stuff, and seeing where it takes us. i know this is like the 18th band i'm in that i've blogged about, but i think i found someone who i enjoy playing music with and has the same drive and passion as i do. oh, and we need a name, so suggestions should follow.

-jim-

oh, i'm going back home the next two weekends to lead worship at FPC, so pray for focus and that our worship would be His delight.

SCT and other things...

so i'm siked that sammy carmike trio is back in the studio, and we have a website on the way. that's right, a website. i'm going home this weekend to sing at Keith's ordination, which is weird because i've been there since the beginning of his seminary, and now, not only is it over, but he's actually a pastor. on top of all that, he's having a baby girl (whom we think should be named Mint or Asparagus). oh well, that's it for now.

_jim_

well, update already

since my last post i have succesfully changed my monologue before auditions and landed the biggest role of my life to date. so, life's going well. we (fpc marietta) leave tomorrow for sharp top, and i couldn't be more excited. some mishaps has come up though. one of my fellow actors is sick. i personally do not know what this means as of right now, but we'll find out if we need to pick up and move on or just carry on as normal. big weekend this weekend.

my show at CSU's information:

Title: The Visit
Playwright: Friedrich Durrenmatt
SHOW DATES: Nov. 15-17 @ 7:30 PM and Nov. 18 @ 2:00 PM
Location: CSU's Theatre on the Park Mainstage

i play the mayor... i'm siked.

_jim_

so...

i've moved into my new apartment, and when i say new, i mean NEW. it still smells like caulking and the fridge actually keeps things cold! school has yet to start, and besides the fact that i have a pretty tough schedule, i think it's going to be fun. i'm taking a lot of theatre classes to (hopefully) hone my craft and make my way up the ladder in the department. speaking of which, auditions are thursday (tomorrow) and i just picked out a monologue, fun right? let's see how far I get without looking in the book.

"You want to know how low I've sunk? I didn't even speak to Edith. I made a phone call pretending to talk to her to scare the Edith and Karen in my head out of here... I tricked myself, i fell for it... the thing about going crazy is that it makes you incredibly smart, in a dumb sort of way. But I do feel like I'm loosing a grip on my life. As if I'm spiraling downward in diminishing circles like water being drained from a bathtub and sudden;y my big toe gets sucked in and I'm left screaming for my life... No. Not my life, my mother. Why, tell me why is it always your mother? It's never your father or your uncle or your second cousin from Detroit..."

there's more, but i don't know it quite yet. i don't even think the part i wrote down is correct, so a little prayer for some focus would be nice. other than that i guess some prayer that i could get back into the sming of things would be helpful as well.

that's it for now, hopefully i'll start posting more regularly.

_jim_

p.s.
some bands to listen to:

Feist
The Thrills
Zero 7
Elliott Smith
mewithoutYou
Justice
Fionn Regan

you will love those musician.