For Your Consideration...

i feel pretty

2009-06-02T00:22:00.002-05:00

oh so pretty

i feel pretty and witty and briiiiiight!

and i pity any girl who isn't me toniiiight!

i've cooled down

2009-05-08T17:04:00.002-05:00

but i'm still not in a good place.

still not going to do anything rash, this feeling hurts enough.

why?

why does this have to happen... now?

UPDATE!!

2009-05-08T04:15:00.002-05:00

and don't expect this one to be happy! so things down here haven't been very good lately, and by "haven't been very good" i mean shitty.

i don't want to write about it now, but just know that i'm really super fucking mad at life right now, but i'm not going to do anything stupid.

i was officially rebounded upon!

thanks for everything, i regret nothing, and i hope for a meeting in the future.

-jim

p.s.

fuck my life

hahaha

2009-04-27T14:48:00.002-05:00

oh yeah! to laugh about this seems so absurd, but do not cry about it anymore. there are more important things to cry about. your little heart can't take it, so SMILE! and know that you're the bigger person. let her realize what she's leaving behind.

CRY! CRY! CRY! you're losing her. do all you can to get her back! if you don't try she'll leave and find some other, more attractive, douche bag to be with. you better shed tears! cause she's gone. ain't coming back. now you get to watch her be happy somewhere else! now doesn't that hurt? GOOD!

thus... my dilemma.

hahaha! isn't life shitty?

-jim

between houses...

2008-07-10T23:29:00.002-05:00

i feel like i don't really live IN a house right now.

because

i'm going back and forth between my home in kennesaw and my house in columbus.

and really, when i read that last sentence again, it explains it all.

i feel like my home in kennesaw is my home, but i'm not spending enough time there for me to feel like i'm actually living there. and the home i'm living in columbus is just a roof.

i'm not saying that i don't enjoy living in columbus, but it just isn't home.

yet.

i really would like to find myself here in comlumbus and get an idea of what my identity is, because i feel like i've always been associated with other people and never just been me.

like back in high school, i was me. jim pharr.

but, in columbus i'm jim, jeremiah, and caroline.

again.

not saying this is a bad thing. i love them. the are the kindest people i know, but i'd like to be known as jim pharr. not as a group.

that's what i'm feeling right now as i plan to leave my HOUSE behind and go HOME for the weekend.

thanks for reading, whoever you are. hope you got something from this.

love,

jim

p.s.

general auditions are coming around next month. i don't know what i'm doing, but i think i'm going to find it soon. i can feel it.

p.p.s.

jason laiche is playing with me at Picasso's on the 30th of this month. drive to come see it, he's incredible. and i might bring back evan fricks who killed it the last time out. COME SEE ME!

out.

bad note

2008-06-30T22:38:00.002-05:00

i kind of left you on one last time.

things are better.

i just want to say that my stomach was making so much noise just a few seconds ago that i had to turn on my music (currently playing Barabajagal by Donovan.)

some other things include:

1. me getting a "job" playing at Picasso's Pizza in downtown columbus. (nice gig, 4 hours of just me and my guitar gently weeping)
2. i've been reuniting with sunflower seeds. (i prefer ranch flavor, but regular is always a good choice.)
3. i cried a few nights ago and it was good. (i was watching Spring Awakening... i know, lame, but being a theatre major i kind of need to get in touch with my feelings every once and a while)
4. i like the swell season. (a ton)
5. i've been eating way to much bologna... (why is it spelled like that bo-lo-gna? not right. should be baloney)
6. i transcribed a guitar part for "Pure Imagination" from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory. (one of my favorite movies)
7. this list is actually pretty fulfilling seeing as it makes me actually think about things i do.
8. i miss writing poetry. (i had a stint a few months back where it was flowing)
9. i've been taking a lot of picture lately with my dad's old Olympus OM-1 camera and i like it. (my buddies who are in the band Small Reactions are hiring me as their photographer and actually are paying me [i think])
10. i've put those pictures around my room, and it feels like home now. (i moved from my apartment in Pooper [Cougar] Village into a house near a park [Lakebottom], and it's perfect)
11. (nothing entered)
12. i miss home home... the people mostly. (they know who i mean)
13. aaron is probably going to be the only one who reads this, if that, so hey... i miss you. (not in a gay way)
14. i need some suggestions on what to spend my money on from playing at this pizza place. (something musical, i.e. an instrument or whatnot)

so...

that was fun.

maybe we'll keep this up.

love,
jim

done,

2008-02-28T14:08:00.003-05:00

(post deleted on account of bitchassness)

September 13th, 2007

2007-11-27T10:40:00.000-05:00

was the last time i posted anything. since then i have successfully closed a show and immediately opened another. this time i'm working backstage, taking on the role of the assisstant stage manager. so far it's been hurry up and do this so you can then sit for two hours. The Visit (the show i acted in) went really well, my friends got nominated for a scholarship and i'm really proud for them. now, i am busy working on a show called Fuddy Meers. it is so funny, a little vulgar at times, but then again what contemporary, comedic theatre now-a-days isn't? i also have a paper due in a week for my theatre history class, and i somehow swindled my way into writing it about a musician named Devendra Banhart (check him out, he's a ood folk artist). i am starting a new project with my friend Evan. we're writing songs and recording stuff, and seeing where it takes us. i know this is like the 18th band i'm in that i've blogged about, but i think i found someone who i enjoy playing music with and has the same drive and passion as i do. oh, and we need a name, so suggestions should follow.

-jim-

oh, i'm going back home the next two weekends to lead worship at FPC, so pray for focus and that our worship would be His delight.

SCT and other things...

2007-09-13T23:43:00.000-05:00

so i'm siked that sammy carmike trio is back in the studio, and we have a website on the way. that's right, a website. i'm going home this weekend to sing at Keith's ordination, which is weird because i've been there since the beginning of his seminary, and now, not only is it over, but he's actually a pastor. on top of all that, he's having a baby girl (whom we think should be named Mint or Asparagus). oh well, that's it for now.

_jim_

well, update already

2007-08-23T19:22:00.000-05:00

since my last post i have succesfully changed my monologue before auditions and landed the biggest role of my life to date. so, life's going well. we (fpc marietta) leave tomorrow for sharp top, and i couldn't be more excited. some mishaps has come up though. one of my fellow actors is sick. i personally do not know what this means as of right now, but we'll find out if we need to pick up and move on or just carry on as normal. big weekend this weekend.

my show at CSU's information:

Title: The Visit
Playwright: Friedrich Durrenmatt
SHOW DATES: Nov. 15-17 @ 7:30 PM and Nov. 18 @ 2:00 PM
Location: CSU's Theatre on the Park Mainstage

i play the mayor... i'm siked.

_jim_

so...

2007-08-15T11:37:00.000-05:00

i've moved into my new apartment, and when i say new, i mean NEW. it still smells like caulking and the fridge actually keeps things cold! school has yet to start, and besides the fact that i have a pretty tough schedule, i think it's going to be fun. i'm taking a lot of theatre classes to (hopefully) hone my craft and make my way up the ladder in the department. speaking of which, auditions are thursday (tomorrow) and i just picked out a monologue, fun right? let's see how far I get without looking in the book.

"You want to know how low I've sunk? I didn't even speak to Edith. I made a phone call pretending to talk to her to scare the Edith and Karen in my head out of here... I tricked myself, i fell for it... the thing about going crazy is that it makes you incredibly smart, in a dumb sort of way. But I do feel like I'm loosing a grip on my life. As if I'm spiraling downward in diminishing circles like water being drained from a bathtub and sudden;y my big toe gets sucked in and I'm left screaming for my life... No. Not my life, my mother. Why, tell me why is it always your mother? It's never your father or your uncle or your second cousin from Detroit..."

there's more, but i don't know it quite yet. i don't even think the part i wrote down is correct, so a little prayer for some focus would be nice. other than that i guess some prayer that i could get back into the sming of things would be helpful as well.

that's it for now, hopefully i'll start posting more regularly.

_jim_

p.s.
some bands to listen to:

Feist
The Thrills
Zero 7
Elliott Smith
mewithoutYou
Justice
Fionn Regan

you will love those musician.

YO!

2007-07-25T17:07:00.000-05:00

i love making pointeless movies for sharp top. it's a blast.

p.s.
sing in your car, it's freeing.

song...

2007-06-30T13:44:00.000-05:00

last blog kinda set the scene for this song:

"Babe"

All the love we shared, you can have it back
'Cause now it don't mean jack to me anymore
Take back your pretty hair and your big green eyes
'Cause they have all but lost the love you used to have for me

(All of you)
I want all of you
(None of me)
But you want none of me
So, I guess I'll leave you alone

Make me out to be the victim
Make me out to be the one who's hurt (x2)

So dump your weight on him, 'cause it's rolled off my back
I hope he's got a knack for talking like the way we did
One day I'll move one, and you'll be in my past
Wishing that the "us" we had could've had a chance to last

(All of you)
I want all of you
(None of me)
But you want none of me
So, I guess I'll leave you alone

Make me out to be the victim
Make me out to be the one who's hurt (x2)

I'll never call you babe again, I won't even call you friend

(All of you)
I want all of you
(None of me)
But you want none of me
So, I guess I'll leave you alone

Make me out to be the victim
Make me out to be the one who's hurt (x2)

I want all of you
But you want none of me
----

Oh well, it's what I felt and now it's done.

jim[pharr]

i'm over it...

2007-06-24T15:45:00.001-05:00

a bomb just dropped on me. she's with one of my best friends. i've just lost two great relationships.

Awesome Road Rules Video

2007-06-16T10:02:00.000-05:00

The following is a video of a bet that started as a joke, but then quickly escalated to an all out leg-licking catastrophe. CAUTION: the following video does contain tongues and legs.

done.

2007-06-01T10:56:00.000-05:00

so i'm back home for summer after the easiest hard class i have ever had to take. i say easy/hard because we had a crap load of work to do, but it was only for three weeks. i am so glad i got to take it now instead of later. i am still, however, one credit hour short of being a sophmore, lucky me right? oh well... i got my deposit back from campus housing and what else would i do with that money but buy music? i bought Dreamboat Annie - Heart and it is mindblowing. Ann Wilson sings like an angel. i also got The Village Sessions - John Mayer. it's not bad, it's acoustic, new John Mayer. also got me some E.L.O. (Electric Light Orchestra for the n00bz), and i'm SIKED about it. well, i like music.

jim[pharr]

-EDIT-
new Michael Bublè... get it.

worship

2007-05-20T22:27:00.000-05:00

i don't realize how much i miss leading until i've had a long stint without it. i had one of the most freeing experiences leading tonight. it was progressive dinner and the seniors wanted alastair and i to lead. i was shocked that they wanted us because they've had some great leaders lately, but nontheless i was very honored. i might need to find a job doing this...

jim[pharr]

hotel

2007-05-15T11:13:00.000-05:00

so i'm sitting in a hotel room waiting for class to start. i'm thinking what life would be like if this was how i was to live for most of my days. it's not bad, but it's not good. i would love to play music for a living, and i wouldn't mindliving out of suitcases in hotels. the only difference would be that there would be PEOPLE AROUND.

lonley

bored

stressed

jim[pharr]

movie

2007-05-06T20:04:00.000-05:00

me and a couple of friends are writing a movie...

it's going to be good

a crime drama
with lots of action and suspense

it's going to be good

some of the songs that inspired it are as follows:

"Feelin' Good" - Michael Bublè (killer opening sequence)
"God's Gonna Cut You Down" - Johnny Cash
"Mad World" - Gary Jules (this song is going to play during a fight scene in slow motion)
"Sowing Season (Yeah)" - Brand New
"Welcome to the Black Parade" - My Chemical Romance
"Halloween" - Dave Matthews Band
"Don Gon Do It" - The Rapture
"Go-Go Gadget Gospel" - Gnarls Barkley
"Keeping the Blade" - Coheed & Cambria
"Matches" - The Format

so listen to that and you'll get the feeling of our movie.

jim[pharr].

...

2007-04-15T21:00:00.000-05:00

all work and no play makes jim a dull boy

all work and no play makes jim a dull boy

all work and no play makes jim a dull boy

all work and no play makes jim a dull boy

all work and no play makes jim a dull boy

all work and no play makes jim a dull boy

all work and no play makes jim a dull boy

all work and no play makes jim a dull boy

all work and no play makes jim a dull boy

all work and no play makes jim a dull boy

all work and no play makes jim a dull boy

...

...

...

~jim[pharr]

TWLOHA

2007-03-30T11:35:00.000-05:00

to write LOVE on her arms

a year ago, a guy named jamie wrote a story. a story of love and compassion towards someone that didn't know what love was. it's been a year since the story was written and the story and it's impact has grown to unbelievable heights. the story was of a girl named renee who was battling depression and addiction and also dealt with cutting. (to read the story go to TWLOHA.com). all it took was some shirts and LOVE. i felt for this organization the minute i read the story. they believe in LOVE and that LOVE is the movement. they're on tour and are going around with Anberlin, Bayside, Meg & Dia, and Jonzetta, and all they are doing is showing LOVE. they're not pressuring people, not pushing a product, nor denying anyone. LOVE is what they're doing. GOD is LOVE and they're are showing GOD through their LOVE. a year ago LOVE became the movement and it is the movement.

check them out, read the story, and decide if you want to join in.

jim

p/s/
the sammy carmike trio played CSU's talent show last night. we didn't win, but we won over a crowd we never thought we would. it goes to show, funny is colorblind.

at the red light

2007-03-22T15:14:00.000-05:00

is the name of my musical outlet... not funny stuff about mexican food making you explode, but real musical outlet. we have a song called "you gotta buy your friends" that sounds kinda like the hives-ish, alternative scratchy sounding and it will be awesome to play that one live. it's all about frats and sororities and buying your friends (clever i know). our next song is called "pop goes the weasle" and it's kinda late 60's beatles. it's all about just getting tired of the same old boring life, and the chorus is a four part harmony on an "ah," so good. and our next song, "yoknapatawpha county" (anyone get the reference), was written on a dreary day. it's very folksie and has a very low, beat down feel to it. jeremiah's grandad calls it our "slave song," and for lack of a better term it's stuck. we have yet to find our "sound," but i think we recently found it... one word... hyphenated twice... are you ready? ELECTRO-ALTERNA-POP! synths and stuff... so good. i'm currently saving up money to get an m-audio midi controller, so we can play live. i'm excited, we're gonna go places!

jimpharr.

p/s/
sammy carmike trio is making it's first live appearence tonight (3/22) at an open mic night!

2 lines

2007-03-13T00:33:00.000-05:00

currently writing a song

have two lines:

you're constantly
out of my reach

sad thing is... it's about a girl

that's it

gonna finish my song

jimpharr

p/s/
aaron and family, sad times we didn't cross paths...

hello

2007-03-07T01:28:00.000-05:00

this blog is coming from the comfortable bed, in my house, in Kennesaw. It's great, I'm on spring break and doing EXACTLY what I want to... nothing! I'm getting a free wireless signal from one of the neighbors, and it's great. I'm watching Scrubs and that is awesome. I downloaded a lot of new music and I'm loving listening to it, Jim Noir, Arctic Monkeys, Bright Eyes (I know, very emotional), Rogue Wave, and Silversun Pickups. Spring break rules!

good things

2007-02-25T13:37:00.000-05:00

i've found somewhere to go on tuesday nights to get the message! it's in a couple of guys house and we just meet and worship with everything we have. i love it and i would like to extend a thanks to Dave (who willnever read this) who brought me. also, i am getting the chance to be a part in leading worship! it was my birthday a couple weeks ago and i got a bass guitar (fender jazz, royal blue... SO good). one of the guys who lives in the house i go to meet at, somehow found out i played, he asked and now i have somewhere to go on thursdays...

bad news...
still don't have a home church to go to on sunday mornings...

things are going well though...

jim

p.s.
i have a seven page paper due monday and i am one paragraph in... refer to the title of my last blog and you'll know what i am doing...

procrastination...

2007-02-13T01:15:00.000-05:00

i am procrastinating as i write this... anyway, i have been trying to write a paper that i do not care about for close to 3 hours now... i don't think my mind is 1. calm enough and 2. engaged enough in the topic to write. i have still not posted on the d group blog and feel like crap about it, but i haven't listened to the podcast yet. yes, i've had the time, but i didn't want to listen to it for some reason. i will probably not finish my paper tonight, it will be rushed and horribley written in the grammatical sense. i did have one the best weekend i have had in a while, this was because i spent it back home leading worship. this is something i have a passion for, much like acting, and the complete antithesis of writing papers. i want to hang on to God and what he did this weekend, but college is getting in the way, and i'm not doing the necessary(sp?) things to hold on to it. i want to hold on, but my physical body does not want to. internal struggle. i have not been doing quiet times. things are going well, physically, but my spiritual life is taking the hit. i want to do quiet times, but i does not seem important to me. this is too long, no one will read it. i am just bad at arming myself with God's armor. why does my physical body fall so quickley when my spiritual side wants to stand firm. i need will power and to be the spiritual person i am at heart. praise the Lord for this weekend. thanks to everyone involved. this is now way too long, aaron will be the only one who reads it, so aaron, help me out bro, i'm kinda freaking out because i keep falling into the same traps. i need God, but i ultimatley don't want Him. way way too long. hope you were not trying to work when you read this.

hating self. needing Him.

I found this on Aaron's blog...

2007-02-01T00:27:00.001-05:00

You scored as Anselm. Anselm is the outstanding theologian of the medieval period.He sees man's primary problem as having failed to render unto God what we owe him, so God becomes man in Christ and gives God what he is due. You should read 'Cur Deus Homo?'

Anselm

100%

Karl Barth

87%

Jonathan Edwards

80%

Friedrich Schleiermacher

67%

Martin Luther

67%

Augustine

67%

John Calvin

53%

Charles Finney

53%

Jürgen Moltmann

40%

Paul Tillich

27%

Which theologian are you?
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alright aaron!

2007-01-28T22:52:00.000-05:00

this is why i have not been posting...

IT'S SHOW WEEK AND I AM A LITTLE STRESSED OUT!

-and-

SCHOOL IS GETTING A LITTLE STRESSFUL AS WELL!

here's something...
Things I wish:

I wish I wouldn't stress out so much.
I wish I would be more confident in my acting.
I wish I could live up to peoples expectations.
I wish I didn't wish my last wish.
I wish I was a little more prepared for Radical Renewal in a couple weeks.
I wish I had more time to sleep.
-and-
I wish I had more time to post, AARON!

(last one's a joke)

Jim, out!

morning

2007-01-08T15:27:00.000-05:00

this morning i woke up early and actually set out a time for me and God. i didn't really know what to start reading, so i read ephesians 4:1-6. didn't really understand it, not gonna lie, but i read it in my message bible and it was clearer. basically get off your butt and live a life worhty of your calling. that hit me deep, so i'm trying to do that, pray for me. i found myself pacing afterwards... i don't know whatwrong with me.

back to the world

2007-01-06T19:44:00.000-05:00

so, the world is about to start again and i am not excited about it. classes start on monday and i am currently stuck in my dorm with no car because it decided to overheat when i was on my way down. i love my parents, i don't say that enough, so here it is again. i love my parents. not only did my dad drive me back down to school on his day off, but the will be making the trip again to bring my truck down here tomorrow! so, i love my parents. classes start which means my theatre classes will be moving downtown which is exciting because i'll get the chance to break in a new theatre, but my show (THE GRAVDIGGER'S TANGO, SHOWING IN THE CSU THEATRE ON CAMPUS ON FEBRUARY 1ST THROUGH THE 4TH) will not be in the new theatre. this also means i have to get to work and memorize my lines and do my character analysis, so that's on my plate. and while i'm whining, God's really pulling on my heart to love Him more, which isn't easy. so that's a little update on me now and also what's to come!

pieces.

passion 07

2007-01-04T23:06:00.000-05:00

well, i just got back from passion this year and i would love to tell you that i had the best time of my life... (and now for the ever-present) BUT! it started out amazingly, i thought this week would be awesome, charlie hall (not my favorite, but that's not what worship's about) sang marvelous light and i was pumped... we were going through Colossians which is great, and things were still going great until i heard Francis Chan talk about loving God... i don't know how much or even if i do... if i truly loved the Lord why am i not doing anything for Him? why does my heart not break when there are millions of people that don't even have bibles in their own languages, when in Iraq there are 1 million people to every 1 missionary... 1 MILLION PEOPLE TO EVERY 1 MISSIONARY? what is that? why do i sit here and think everything is great, not reading and studying my bible, when brothers and sister in Christ including me are needing encouragment? this passion was ultimatley awesome, and not in the 2007 way of awesome, but i found myself standing in the awe of God's presence last night. there is something to be said for the Holy Spirit when He can move 25,000 college students to sponsering 14 college students in africa to go to college, paying for the translation of a bible for the 3 different people groups who don't have bibles in their langauge, drill 39 wells for countries in Africa, pay for 100 life changing surgeries for children in south amercia, send over 1,000 bibles to people in asia, have 150 students pledge to pray to spend a year in the freedom center in northern Iraq, and many, many other wonderful things. but that still doesn't answer the question - do I love God? the holy spirit did a lot of truly AWESOME things this week, but he also planted some pretty big questions in my head. Jesus died for everyone... chills up my spine... our work is not complete until His name and renown are known ALL OVER THE WORLD! ALL OVER THE WORLD! praise the Lord for he is good and has blessed me with FAR much more than i deserve. once again our job is NOT complete until God's wrath and love, Jesus' unbelievable sacrifice, and the Holy Spirit's mighty power are known ALL AROUND THE WORLD!

nope

2006-12-21T04:22:00.001-05:00

not tired, but u foud this on aaron's blog and i did it...

You Are 52% Open Minded

You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.
Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.
But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.
You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

How Open Minded Are You?

yep

2006-12-21T04:14:00.000-05:00

it's four fourteen in the morning and i'm wide awake... something is wrong with this. oh well, i hope i can get to sleep soon, mom and i have a big day planned for tomorrow. we're finishing our christmas shopping, i think. oh! wait! i think i'm tired! night...

pieces

SNL back?

2006-12-19T01:38:00.001-05:00

the sports page

2006-12-13T22:42:00.000-05:00

so we (me, jeremiah, and nick) went to the sports page (a local food joint) to sing a little kareoke... now back in my day kareoke was for fun and to see people make fools of themselves. apparently i was wrong. we didn't get in because you have to be 21 to sing Mony Mony. i hate that because we won't get drunk and scream, we can't have a good time. i was about to drop at least 7 dollars on some good Coca-Cola, oh well sports page... i hate you.

pieces.

sammy carmike trio

2006-12-12T14:43:00.000-05:00

i have a band called the sammy carmike trio (www.myspace.com/thesammycarmiketrio) and we almost have enough material to put out an album!! we're SUPER excited about it too. we have also designed a shirt which is so BA. we'll hopefully start playing some shows around down here in columbus, and get our name out there. man, i hope this band sticks togethert because i have SO much fun playing and singing with jeremiah!! oh well, that's it for now.

pieces.

first off

2006-12-10T13:46:00.000-05:00

i had to make a blog to post on aaron's site, so i did. i don't know if i'm gonna keep up with it, but i might. so this weekend, starting on friday, i have spent a total of 41 hours straight in my room, and counting. i'm not saying this to get pity or have anyone feel bad for me because it's been nice. i guess i needed a lot of alone time, because i haven't really had it since the beginning of the semester. peace, love, and gap.